Hey,

Give that description to the people who know me best, Mitchell and Cole. You're wrong. You didn't know me when I was with any other girl. I agree, what you saw of me, was all fake. You never knew the real me, don't even try and say you did. As much as you want to say you have me figured out, it's not true. But think what you want, really.

typin on and on...

Fresher than tony rebels vestibules at saturday market festivals. My incredible baby was, plentiful. Over the years I met a few, none of them compared to you. Preparin you to make food bearable, somethin terrible, lets see. You fruitful, beautiful, smart, lovable, huggable. Doable like art, suitable to be part. Of my life, coppertone, oh you copyright infringement. Pay you bidness ten cents, way back in the day. Its like I'm standin there you know appreciatin gods design. And then you showed up, its like you read my mind. Damn shes fine, I think I add the r-e, in front of that. And see if she d, to get, with a kid like me.



You inspire me, i desire thee, chance to see you again. Just wanna show you, I'm becoming a man. I remember these words, "andrew, don't ever forget this, I love you so much." Now, I'd give anything to hear such. Tryin to make it through the day, no possible way. I miss you more and more, farther away our chances get of talkin again. I just don't wanna sin, high off weed and lots of gin. I take time, to think about you, dime. Just remember baby, when I told you, you the shit. I really meant it, and that's it. That's all there is to us, you were perfect, our lives weren't hectic. This is the real world baby, it aint no fairy tale. But I guess, it's been awhile since we had a chance to rail.



To make it simple for you let's call 'em the bosses. They take money while the people take losses. To work for free. And we still barely get paid enough to eat. That's what I told you, I be saying in my vocals. That's why the woman got the gun on the logo. The star is the future, that we gonna create. Where nobody steal money from the things we make. The revolution takes time and space. But you as a woman gotta know you're place. That's in the front baby. I'm being blunt baby. If the get mad say it's they time of the month baby. Your face is just like the sun when it raises. Thank you for adding beauty to my phrases. Handshakes are promises. Lies can spoil it
Words should be bond and seal. You're not around and I just have to deal.

Blabbin'

Who do you reminisce about?
I remember it like a dream, it was all clean lean accesories. She always asked me to pay her fees.
I always told you if you ever went off in a daze, I promise we won't go our separate ways. This is just how I reminisce. Sometimes, I wish that I could kick it with you. More now, than ever. I wonder, do you take time to reminisce? No lie, really how could I forget you? Sometime, I wanna kick it with you, more now, than ever. Do you ever reminisce? You stand tall, I told you I'd give you all. You know, everything I had, it was global. Baby, how were you so humble? Now, you don't know what I'd give, to show you how I've started to live. I'm far and beyond, I think we can recreate that bond. I refuse to catch another case, where it's me and you, and you can't look me in the face. Let's elevate, yeah I remember what they use to say, let's create a stronger bond, and never break. I wonder, do you take time to reminisce? I'll start takin it day by day, but baby i really miss the way, that you held me, if only you could see, how much you mean to me, now, and forever.


I love you.

Our true selves

Wow I love Mitchell and Cole, the best friends I've ever had, and ever will have. The more I hang out with them, the more I'm getting back to not giving a shit about what people think, and just being my complete self all of the time. I don't care anymore, if people don't like me for being who I really am, then suck it. I'm a natural born hardass. I'm so stoked for this summer. Goodnight ladies and gents.

Jennifer!

Get the hell outta here. You should know better than to get into that shit, especially after watching what happened to Keegan and I last year. I'll always remember what Keegan said,
"Illegal business runs America. Without it, we wouldn't have an economy."
And that's when I realized, he's right! Illegal business DOES run America.
"The economy is the realized social system of production, exchange, distribution, and consumption of goods and services of a country or other area."
Whether it's illegal, underground, or mainstream, the economy needs everyone, and everything. Drugs, money, and food run the world. Without all of it, this world wouldn't function. Drugs keep money flowing, money keeps food flowing, food keeps people alive. I'm sure not very many people will agree with me, because of their grudge against drugs. But I reality hit me. Oh and I realized girls are nothin' but trouble. So I'm going to focus on school from now on, because no relationship, EVER, is worth losing friendships of any sort.

Talk about lies

I don' t wanna hear any of it anymore. And I could care less what happens between us, whether we talk or not. Fuck it, right?

One destructive path

My life so far, has been quite a ride. I've destroyed everything I come across, especially my social life. I've went through friends faster than I can say I have no real friends. I was outrageous last year, with my drinking, and my smoking. How many school sesh's do I need to have before I realize that drugs don't get you through school? I couldn't wait for that lunch sesh every morning that I woke up. I was stoked for that night, to get really drunk. I was so ready to stay up all night and get an hour of sleep before school. The way I treated girls last year, was unacceptable. I think about it, and I want to talk to each one of my ex's and apologize for how I treated them. I was a pretty verbally abusive boyfriend last year, mostly caused by the things I did. I was a liar, a cheater, and an asshole. I played girls all of freshmen year, acting like another girl didn't even exist. Looking back at my old messages made me think about a lot. Almost everyone knew what I did last year, but no one knew how much I suffered. They figured I controlled my drinking, and only him, her, and my cousin knew the truth. Let's start off with you dude, you knew everything. No guy was ever close to me, throughout my whole life. You were an enabler, but you understood. You drank, smoked, and partied with me but always kept me safe. I don't think you'll ever know how thankful I am. No one will ever really realize how much I cared about you. You saved my life dude. Sometimes I would outgrow drinking, or at least I thought I did. But somehow, a couple nights later I would be taking vikoden and chuggin' beers. You were my bestfriend, and I miss you. On to you, girl, you did a lot for me. We were off and on all year, but you were always there for me. For some reason, I was so hesitant to say how I felt to you. You never judged me, and tried helping me with my problem, but I was just so nervous around you. You picked me up every night I would fall in the bushes, or the middle of the street, or the river. The first time I said I love you to you, I was wasted. You didn't care though, you said it back. And it felt good because I didn't rush into saying it. We were already together for a couple months. Anyway, the point is, I told you everything and you saved me last year also. You were the only girl I could talk to you about my problem. When your dad died, I know it hit you pretty hard. It really seemed like I didn't care because I never stopped anything like you asked. Whenever you'd talk about him, I'd be busy saying "Hang on, lemme crush this bowl." I'm sorry for that. Keegan, you corrupted me, and I love you more than you know. I need you to come home, help me again. I can't raise myself, you know how dad is. I know my life was rough last year, and you know that too, but I'm sure nothing compares to what you're dealing with right now. I miss you calling me, and telling me what went on in the day. You send letters to aunt cindy, because she's your mom. But send something to me, I get all of my information from her. And you know how much she moves around. It's just hard without you, I've gone through a lot. I feel like when you come back, if you come back, that it'll almost be like we will have to meet each other again. You've been gone for about 3 years now. You came back last year, because you knew it was gonna be hard, with what was going on at home. I want to thank you, you truly will never know what you've done in my life. You are my only hero, that will ever be in my life. You've had ten times the amount of problems I've had, and you didn't have anyone. Just come back that's all I ask. I love you. I'm gonna try going through the stage I went through last year. When I got out of it, things started going perfect. This time, I won't have Keegan. I won't have anyone, and that's what I want. I need to fall on my own, I don't want people picking me up. I'm gonna hit rock bottom, and get myself up. Thanks to everyone who is going to try though.