I can't take it

I'm sitting here, it's 3 in the morning, and I just got done having one of the most serious conversations I've ever had in my life with Taylor.
I wish I could just put it here and show how much it took for me to say what I said to her.
Avieta got off the phone earlier and I think that's why I can't sleep.
Shoooooot. Somebody save me!

wow

You make me realize a lot of things. Everyday you open my eyes to new stuff, and I like it.
I feel like I messed things up, I'm sorry. Things haven't been the same anymore. I'm doing bad in school, I don't have the same friends, and my new friends are not GOOD friends. No matter how rude that sounds, it's so true. I miss going to Mitchell's or Cole's, just doing nothing and playing video games. We had so much fun, especially when we messed with Sully. Even though their parent's knew I drank, and knew I had done bad things, they didn't treat me ANY different like my parents do. They were my second family, I love them. Matt was like an older brother, and Sully was like a little brother. When I would walk in the house without knocking, they would know it was me. I want my friends back. This isn't fair.


It's like I have everything, but at the same time, I have nothing.