Real Talk

I don't know how to explain life, right now. I hate writing here, because I make myself look like shit. But I don't mind, judge if you'd like. My drinking lately, has taken me to the past. It now takes me four 40oz's to get drunk, that's 20 beers... My smoking is excessive, but it's what makes me feel good. Going back to North is good for me, really good. My friends are great. I need to make a list of what I have learned this year, it may have been my most important year yet. I can keep this life goin, I've been fortunate for majority of it. I haven't seen you in a long time, but I saw you at the fair. It's weird, because I never thought I'd think of you like this, but I sort of like you. You're cute, and realllly nice. I don't see anything happening, or you even liking me. But it's alright, as long as we talk :) I'm sorry to everyone who saw me at the fair, fucking trashed out of my mind, not that I did anything bad, or that I regret it, I was just probably annoying as FUCK. Stoned and hammered, it was nuts. I'm especially sorry to you, I said I would hang out with you that night, but I didn't. If I wasn't so drunk, I would have made sure to hang out. We've only hung out a few times this summer, and it's my fault. The sophomores this year are douchebags, if you walk up to me at a party, you better not try and drink my fucking 40. FOR REALS, haha. I still can't phathom the fact that you are buying cases of 40oz's at 16, without an ID. This summer has by far been amazing, getting drunk with alll the girls and friends, being stoned every single day, and just living shit up. I hope I don't get deeper again, I've been pretty fucked up lately. But I'll let it be, it's life, I live once. Lightin up now, latessss.

Shadow Of A Man

I'm proud of you for doing what you want, choosing who you want, and feeling how you want. You put all of your blame on me, but I'll take it all, no matter the size or depth. I want to help you out, even though he doesn't approve. He thinks I like you, and that you like me, but if that happens, it'll happen. Nothing should have to stop it, but I certainly won't encourage it. Be free, you deserve it.